When you sit to dine with a ruler, note well what is before you, and put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony. Do not crave his delicacies, for that food is deceptive. ‘

Proverbs 23:1-3

What a relationship I have with this particular one. My relationship with food has always been strange. I was a picky eater as a child and I still have some issues today. My family has stories of me when it comes to food, especially Cinnamon Brown Sugar Poptarts. I could eat an entire container of anything that I liked. I still can. It can be quite out of control.

However, it is quite hard not to be gluttonous when society pushes food on you. Everything is about food. Even fellowship with the church revolves around food. There is nothing wrong with food in general, but we encourage excessive amounts of it. If you do not clean your plate, you are wasting it. How many children were told that a poor child in an impoverished country would love what they had? It is a blessing to not have to worry about going without, but it is un-Christlike to gorge yourself on food.

The issue is self-control. Lack of self-control is a sin and is related to multiple deadly sins. Can you see in areas of your life where you have a lack of self-control? Is food one of them? Warning: this devotional may be longer than others.

Confession: I have disclosed some of my story, including eating issues. I used to starve myself and then gorge on food, and repeat the cycle. When I got deep into it I would make myself sick. I was so unhappy with the girl in the mirror and my lack of self-control made me feel so much worse. I did get help and my relationship with food has improved. I rarely see the fat girl in the mirror, even though technically now I would be considered fat since I wear plus size clothes. I became a personal trainer. I however still do not have a one hundred percent healthy relationship with food. I still find myself binging. Which takes away from the exercise. A lot of times when I gorge on food, I do not want to exercise. Due to recent health developments, I know I must change.

Commitment: To explain health developments. I was still going back and forth between gorging on bad food and eating healthy portioned meals and exercise. I got sick exactly a year ago when I traveled to my hometown New York City to visit family. I got sick the first morning I arrived. Fever, chills, it was bad. I thought it was the flu. I have not had the flu since I was six. I always got a flu shot since then, but I did not last year. It was not the flu. It was a bacterial sinus infection. When I flew home, the pressure from the plane caused the infection to develop in my ears. It was weeks of different antibiotics, steroids, and dizziness medication. It caused my immune system to begin to attack healthy tissue. The right side of my thyroid was swollen with nodules, my eyes weakened and would hurt, and the worst part was debilitating and radiating pain that I got all over my body. I also had heat flashes, insomnia, rapid heartbeat, and I gained weight every week for two months. I have not gotten an official diagnosis. What was going on at the time, I believe this was spiritual attack and God was teaching me two things. How to fight in the spirit and that I needed to take care of myself. My body, as I have stated before, is the Temple of God and I need to care for this body. I have found a primarily plant-based diet, exercise and prayer keep the symptoms away, but because of lack of self-control and diligence, it’s not always what I do. So, I will be documenting my journey to full recovery and how God gets me through every moment. He cares about your body because if you are in a relationship with Him, the Holy Spirit comes to live inside of you. You must take care of yourself inside and out.

Father, You created every inch of my body. You have given me the means to nourish it and cherish it, but sometimes I do the complete opposite. This body is the house of the Holy Spirit and I know as we dwell as one, I must care for my body, through diligence and especially self- control. Father help me to look at food, while enjoyable, not a source of entertainment or therapy. That food should be a source that nourishes this body for the works of service you have placed before me. I praise your great and powerful name,

In Yeshua’s (Jesus) Name I pray, Amen.

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